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I'm useless..

Title says it all.
now let me explain

why do I think.. actually
How do I know that I'm useless..

observe.. well read

family- I'm a useless family member.
why? I make my parents suffer
They work so hard full time. 6 days a week. and yet I still sit on my rear end everyday on msn/myspace/fb.
my brother and sister probs don't even like me. I yell at them 24/7. for no reason. 
They, are not perfect. But look at you Theresa. NEITHER ARE YOU !
I love my family very much.
But I don't deserve the same love, I just don't 

friends- erm. Like I have any? 
I sit and watch.
like everything in front of me is a movie.
Other people are out there, enjoying life, solving their problems, breaking up, hooking up. whatever.
I'm here, by myself, Watching and observing. 
I don't deserve to have friends. Because I'm not one myself.
And please don't come up to me and say. 
'theresa, you have heaps of friends. what are you talking bout.'

Well thank you very much for attempting to cheer me up. but I'm sorry to say. but you fail. 
Friends is a complicated thing. they walk in and out ( how many times have I said that aye ) I cbf describing what they are, Because I'm at the bakery and like I have 20% of battery left.
But yeah. the word 'friend' isn't really part of my dictionary because the real meaning is meant to be shown by that person. and so far, not many people have shown that. 
but there is one person who has.

my best friend- he is just amazing and is the real meaning of a best friend. he is always there for me. and supports me. I really appreciate it, but why is that I can't do the same for him?
I can't cheer him up. I can't help him with his problems. I can't provide him my support. I don't know why he calls me his best friend. I don't deserve him.


I kinda need to wash my face cos like I don't wanna be like asked by parents 
WHY THE FUCK YOU CRYING @ THE BAKERY FOR ?!
Oh yeah. I don't even work. I just sit there and watch. Like right now, sitting down writing my blog via iPod. 
So sad..


Btw. listen to this song :
Ina - fall
the lyrics are just so beautiful.



But yeah..
Uhm, thanks for reading?